If I could take whats left
Broken dreams, tattered memories, and lost thoughts
If I could take whats left of these
And bottle them up.
Id be left with an empty bottle
You left me with nothing
An emptiness which turns into
A huge null and void
Bigger than any black hole
That science has or does not have knowledge of
Like I do or do not care to be apart of...when it comes to you
You left me with an unwillingness to move forward
To become complacent in my own self
To settle for anything or anyone
That may come along
Why?
Because you instilled in me through your actions
That anything, anyone, and everyone would be just like you
Arrogant, biligerant, conceited, distastefulhypocritical
I say hypocritical; And I should applause on this because it astonishes
Me how you could go from loving, caring, ecstatic, romantic
To irrational, vexed, thoughtless, and solemn
And then back again
Like two children going back and forth up and down
On an elementary school playground see saw
And the games that those two children play
Are nothing less than the ones you played
Hell, the ones we played my joining in
Only after gaining knowledge of how well of a player
You became
Even through all the torment, I have time to reminisce
On the pastyou know, the beginnings of us!?
As I sit back and mentally put in chronological order
How we got to the point where we are now
I cannot get to this point without remembering the good times also
The good times? Yeah, we had a few of those
In fact, as I continue to recollect, I remember how we got
To the chapter in our lives
That if it was a novel
It would be titled , Beginning of the End: a lovers journey
Right now were on chapter 11 of 12
The last chapter I can say I hope
I can get to soon because this is the chapter written on closure
A closure that you never gave me
Because when I wanted to talk
You werent there to listen
When I needed to hear, it will be ok
You were there to pile on more drama
So its within myself
Within this empty bottle filled with pieces of
Broken dreams, tattered memories, and lost thoughts
Is where I have to deal with the case
Because when I learned about all of the things
That you could either do or not do to me
To make me react this way
I learned to be strong
And I know tomorrow will be a better day
Than the last
